Finishing Off the Year

This past year, 2018, has been difficult to say the least. I am not the rigidly disciplined person I once was and while that may actually work to my favor, it just feels like complete loss of control and instability. It makes me feel even more insecure and stressed out.

What this year lacked:
Financial stability
     This was of my own doing. I am usually a really great financial planner, but I seemed to have just reverted back into the poor habits of my teens.
Medical Stability
     I did not have health insurance this year and have also developed new ailments.
Mental Stability
     Aside from just the all consuming grief, I would appear that I just can't kick my anger. I have always been an angry person, but I feel as though I can't struggle to be around people without opening my mouth to engage in conflict.
Physical Stability
     I am most definitely not in the best shape of my life. While I have learned to accept the weight that I am at, I know that I really need to starting treating my body better. My nutrient intake levels are down while my physical engagement has been up.

What I hope to work on:
Paying off key pieces of debt
Home improvement
Stretching every day
Mindful Hiking
Being less angry

Now of course I have subcategories within each of these, but these over the over "jist" of my goals for 2019. Now time to bust out that ol' glue stick and get cracking on that vision board!


MC

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